Lamentations 3:17-Peace has been stripped away, and I have forgotten what prosperity is.
Have you ever felt like everything in your life is going wrong? No matter what you do, nothing seems to go right. 2012 so far, has not been too great for us. We were hit with some major unexpected expenses. We were told some scary news regarding my husband's job and we are still waiting on the blessing of another child! We have found ourselves sitting in stale and stagnant water in our christian walk. Yesterday was a very difficult day for me. I finally just broke. I'm the type of person that holds everything in. When someone asks me if I am o.k. I respond with a smile, "Yes! Everything is great!"
Friday night I decided to drag out the humidifier in hopes of getting the air quality back to normal in our house. We've been heating our house with the fireplace alone..trying to conserve electricity. We are pretty sure we are going to get hit with a huge electric bill next month due to the meter not working properly. Anyway, I put the humidifier on my night stand. The next morning I woke up and realized the entire thing was empty. It had leaked out all over our brand new night stand and ruined the top. Although that doesn't seem like a huge deal to many. We just bought this new furniture not even a year ago and now this piece is just ruined. I burst into tears. Jake didn't really know what to say. I'm pretty sure he thought I had lost my mind but in the midst of the sobs I said, "What did we do to deserve this? Are we being punished for something?"
The rest of the day I surrounded myself with worship music and people who I knew would have the right words of encouragement for me. I had the perfect time of prayer. I am so thankful that in every circumstance in my life, I can still find enough strength to give God all of my praise. Without Him I would have absolutely nothing! I know, at times, it seems like we are never going to get out of the situations we are in, but if we put our faith and trust in Jesus...ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE!!
No longer will I allow the enemy to creep in and steal my peace! My faith and trust are completely in Him!
After my extremely emotional day yesterday I reminded myself that my situation is nothing compared to what other people are going through. There is always someone going through something so much worse that I can even imagine.
I refuse to feel sorry for myself. God is in total control! And I choose to leave it in His hands!
Luke 1:37- For nothing is impossible with God.