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Wednesday, November 3, 2010

In Christ, there are no Goodbye

It's been a pretty emotional week. I'm sure everyone reading this knows that my friend, Courtney had her precious Ella on Monday. I'm so glad she allowed me to be a part of her day. What a joy it was to share with my friend that bittersweet day. I think we all prepared ourselves as best as possible given the situation. But, I will never forget sitting in the waiting room the moment we got the text message that read...3lbs. 11 oz. 15 in. long. Nobody breathed! All that was going through my mind was "how is everyone?" Not too long after that (but seemed like an eternity) the nurse came in to get Brighton, Lily and Lilah (Ella's siblings). We waited for them to come back and then sent the grandparents in. Finally, it was my turn! I went it to see them really not knowing what to expect. And what I saw was Courtney (beautiful as ever) holding this beautiful little baby girl! When I looked at Ella, I saw perfection! She had a beautiful hat on and a tiny little outfit that read, "Little Sister." That baby girl has made more of an impact in her short time on Earth than most people that live long lives. And what awesome parents Ella was blessed with!! What an awesome friend I was blessed with!! God sure does know what He is doing when he puts two people in the same paths. I can't wait for the day when I make it to heaven and get to hold her in my arms again!! I'm sure I will have to fight her momma and daddy for the chance. Oh what a day that will be!!

What I am struggling with is this...I have had countless people send me messages and text me, "Is there anything I can do?" I don't know what to say because I struggle with that myself..."What can I do to ease the pain?" Too bad there is not a Book of Life that tells you step-by-step instructions on how to be a good friend and what to do in tragic situations.

I want Courtney to know that I am here for her. I believe she knows that I love her and that I am here for her NO MATTER what! I would do anything for that family!! I think prayers are about the only thing that can help mend broken hearts. And I have prayed nonstop!!

On another note...

My Grandpa Wallen passed away on Ella's day. He was a great man of God!! He was the kindest person I knew. My Grandma Jean loved him very much! And he made her so happy the last years of her life. I got the message early in the morning on Tuesday. Jake came into the bathroom and I was just standing there sobbing. He said, "What's wrong with you?" When I told him what happened he said, "I'm sorry." I told him it was tears of joy. Grandpa was so ready to be with Jesus. I was overwhelmed with emotion as I thought of the reunion between him, his son (Randy), his wife (Wanda) and my Grandma Jean. What a glorious day that was!!

All that comes to mind right now is this song...

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Chicago, Here we come!!

Last year at this time Jake and I had just sold our house and we were homeless. We had land to build a house on but we were not quite ready for the commitment it would take to go through the process of building. After all he wanted to do most of the work himself and his job just does not allow that kind of time. So, in transition, we moved in with my parents. We had an 18 month old and two dogs to add to their three dogs! It was INSANE!! But, we made it work for a couple of months while we found a "transition" house.

Needless to say we didn't get to do anything special for our 3 year anniversary. We were kind of bummed. We went to dinner while my mom watched Halle. On our way home we had a conversation about how we would never let another anniversary go by without doing something "special." Jake's idea was to go to a new city each year. I liked that idea! I love to travel and in our 4 years of marriage we haven't had many opportunities. We went on a honeymoon, of course and the next summer we spent a week in the Smoky Mountains. But, that is about it.

I said all of that to say...I'm pretty excited about our first city of choice!! CHICAGO!! I've heard so many great things about the city. I'm just praying that the rain is scattered and not a constant downpour!! On the agenda is Shedd Aquarium, Field Museum, Skydeck Chicago, Navy Pier and SHOPPING, SHOPPING, and more SHOPPING (Jake is going to be thrilled!!) I've also heard that The Museum of Science and Industry is pretty cool. I'm just hoping to get to most of the attractions in one weekend!!

We have only left Halle two times overnight that I can remember. The first time she was 6 months old and we went to Branson for the weekend. The other time she was about a year old and we went to St. Louis overnight. We don't leave her ever....other than daycare during the day....she is with us ALWAYS. Honestly, I could probably count on two hands the times we've left her with a sitter. It just doesn't happen.

So, I am a little bit nervous!! I start thinking crazy thoughts like, "What if something would happen to us?" If we got in a wreck and she wouldn't have her parents? I know it is silly. But, I worry!! Say a prayer for safe travel. We are driving...which is crazy, I know! But, we really didn't have any other choice.

Hopefully we will come back still married!! :-) And with lots and lots of memories!!

Happy 4th Anniversary, Jake!! I love you!! :)

Sunday, October 17, 2010


I know parents always think their kid is the smartest kid alive. They also love to talk about them and go on and on about the funny things they do or say.

I'm no different, I guess! I'm just happy I have a place that I can "write" about it. If for no other reason to be able to look back and remember.

Bare with me!! Ha ha!!

The other day we were all at the dinner table. Halle was acting like a "normal" two year old (jabbing her fork into the table...making dents in the table and laughing). Ok, maybe that isn't normal for a two year old...but my two year old is quite the stinker!! Jake was sitting next to her and told her to stop several times. Finally he resulted to, "If you don't stop you are going to get a spankin." She didn't stop so he had to "swat" her... She got this shock look on her face and said, "Kwista, he hit me!" I was almost certain I didn't hear her right so I said, "What, Halle?" and she responded, "KWISTA, HE HIT ME!" I had to turn away to keep from laughing.

Halle is a HUGE Daddy's girl. He tends to spoil her a bit and she knows she usually gets her way with him. They like to play these games when she gets in trouble by me he asks her if she wants Daddy to spank Mommy and she always laughs and says, "Yes!" Ha ha, right? So, the other day he disciplined her and she came running to me. "Daddy, spanked me!" I thought I would be clever so I asked her if she wanted me to spank Daddy. And she said, "NO, I wuv him!"

Ugh!! :-) I can't win!!

Usually bath time is a time for learning in my house! Well, when I give baths it is. I use bath tub markers and draw shapes and ask her what shape it is. Or I might write letters and ask her what letter it is. She is pretty good with the shapes..but we are still working on letters. So, this morning I wrote the letter "B" on the side of the tub. (I knew she had been learning this letter at daycare.) I said what letter is this, Halle? She said, /b/ like ball! WOW!! I had no idea she knew the sound of the letter...so I tried "A" and she said /a/ like apple. Hmmmm!!! I am impressed!!

So, not only does my kid have a sense of humor but she is SMART!! LOL!!

God is so good!! He has blessed me with so much more than I deserve!!

Thursday, October 7, 2010

It's not fair...(but thats life, I guess)

I'm being a big ole' baby...

It was great visiting my parents tonight. We always have the best conversations. But, tonight they got me a little fired up. I was talking (ok-complaining...lol) about having to spend my Anniversary at school...7:40 a.m. to 8:00 p.m. for Parent/Teacher conferences. They informed me that they also have to have P/T conferences...from 6:00 p.m. to 8:00 p.m. They tried telling me its the same....ha ha! Seriously? Elementary teachers are putting in WAY more hours than those stinkin' High School/Middle School teachers. :-) How is that fair?

Ok, Ok...I KNOW!! "Life isn't fair!" GRRR...it is just frustrating that is all!! And my Dads solution, "Just move up to Middle School!"

"Uh, No Thanks, DAD!"

"I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE my 2nd Graders."

...WOW!! That's just all I have to say!!

On a different note...I have been a little frustrated with my water bill. We are on Pilot Knob Rural Water. The last two months my bill was exactly $63.33 (FOR WATER! NO TRASH OR SEWER) So, after paying 4 years of water bills I've NEVER had the same exact bill to the penny. I decided to call because I was sure they didn't read the meter one month and just gave me an estimated bill. Low and behold he told me the "Meter Reader" didn't make it to read a month...that explains it. But, he still tried to convince me it was accurate...Whatever!

So, I asked him if he could give me a print out of my usage so I could see if there was a spike in usage one day or another. He said, "No, we don't have anything like that.' I asked him if he could look up and see what kind of bill I could expect for the month of September usage. I explained that my water bill should be much cheaper now that I'm not home all day. He flipped through a book (Yes, a BOOK! No computer...I could hear pages turning) and said, "Well, it looks like here you used 10,000 gallons last month. And you can expect a $92 bill. WHAT?!? (EYES POPPING OUT OF MY HEAD!)

Naturally, you might think there was a leak. So far this is what I found. The meter is not spinning at all when the water is shut off. I did find a leaky toilet and a faucet dripping. But, 10,000 gallons of water? Wow!! So, I've found myself obsessed with checking my water meter. My husband made the mistake of showing me where to check the numbers. So, I've found myself running out there after every load of laundry, car wash and shower...he he. I'm sure my neighbors think I'm hiding something valuable in that hole...or they think I've lost my mind. LOL!! It is just beyond frustrating!! It seems we are on average now about 1100 gallons a week. Maybe that is a little on the high side...but that is no where near 10,000 gallons in a month.

So, as I pay a really cheap electric bill to Ameren, I'm going to choke out a check made payable to Pilot Knob Water for a whoopin' $92! FOR WATER!! UGH!! I miss my City of PH!! :)

I'm so so glad tomorrow is Friday! Morning duty+TESTING=One Tired Teacher!!

I am ready for a wonderful Friday and relaxing weekend!!

Monday, October 4, 2010

Teaching is SO much more...

My day at school always starts out the same. My students come into the classroom at 7:55. They flip their attendance cards, get two sharpened pencils and begin working on morning work. I usually help them out with the pencil sharpening (otherwise they could be there FOREVER!!).

One day last week, as I was sharpening a students pencil, I was completely humbled. Second graders love to tell stories to their teachers...some things I'd rather not hear. This student said, "We don't have electric at our house so we are using camping stoves to heat our water." At first, I don't think it quite registered to me what he was saying. After all he didn't sound upset by it. He said it very matter-of-factly...like it was totally normal. So I started asking more questions. "Why don't you have electric?" He said, "Oh it was shut off on Monday." Although he didn't seem to be phased by this at all...it literally brought me to tears and made me realize how much I take for granted. What I consider to be a "basic need" may be a luxury to some. Today I asked him if it was still off and he said, "Yes, and it is getting COLD!" :-( I'm currently trying to get them help.

It is moments like these that I realize why I became a teacher. Sure, my job is to educate children. But, it is so much more than that. I have to remind myself that some of these children need more than just an education. They need love, praise and attention. They need to hear about all the good things they are doing. Some kids do not hear one kind word at home. I think it is so easy to get caught up in meeting AYP...and teaching all of our GLE's to prepare our students for the MAP. But, as I was reminded last week...it is SO much more than that!

Please pray for all of our children who are less fortunate.

I feel the need to thank my parents for all they are doing for two young adults. My parents have the biggest hearts of anybody I know. They are making a difference in the lives of two high school students. Their story would rip your heart out! Please keep them in your prayers as they adjust to having two teenagers in the house again. We all have a difficult road ahead.

Thursday, September 30, 2010


I've been feeling very down lately without any real explanation. I mean, sure I've got stressful situations in my life right now but I've always dealt with stress relatively easy. I've always been an optimist that looks on the bright side of life. But, for some reason I am finding myself in an "unhappy place." I don't like the "unhappy place" and I refuse to stay here for very long.

I am questioning whether or not I am depressed...

I'm putting this out there because I'm not afraid of people judging me. I also realize that depression affects more people than we can ever begin to imagine. I refuse to let it control me and I am determined to overcome it.

So, I started researching depression and found a few interesting statistics. I figured I would share some of them...I highlighted a few that stood out to me.

**Recent statistics suggest roughly seven of every one hundred people suffer depression after age 18 at some point in their lives.
**As many as one in 33 children and one in eight adolescents have clinical depression. Suicide is the third leading cause of death for ages 10 to 24.
**Most people diagnosed with major depression receive a diagnosis between their late twenties to mid-thirties.
**About six million people are affected by late life depression, but only 10% ever receive treatment.
**For every one man that develops depression, two women will, regardless of racial or ethnic background or economic status.
**More than half of all people caring for an older relative show clinically significant depressive symptoms.
**By the year 2020, depression will be the 2nd most common health problem in the world

I got a little laugh out of the statistic that says...For every one man that develops depression, two women will...(What are they trying to say? We are more emotional than men?) That would be the understatement of the century!!

Anyway, just keep me in your prayers as I fight this small battle. I will not stay here long!! :)

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Some things never change

Our class reunion turned out to be a great time! I have to say there were times I wasn't completely sure it was going to all come together. I think every one had fun just visiting with each other. It is so hard to believe that 10 years has gone by. On one hand it seems like only yesterday we were all sitting in classes at CHS. Then, when you look at all the "old" pictures it seems like an eternity ago!

We had classmates drive from Tennessee...(Great to see you, Angela!!) And even one that flew from Boston! (Krista, you are just as gorgeous as you ever were!;) I just wanted to say thanks to EVERYONE who came.

The funny thing is, everyone seemed to be exactly the same as we left 10 years ago. I mean, sure some of us had put on a few extra pounds...some lost a lot of weight..ahem..Kendra!! I was expecting someone to stand out and really nobody did! :)

Here is a picture to show you exactly what I mean about...SOME THINGS NEVER CHANGE!

These two are hilarious! So glad you guys came!!

Then, around 10:00 we had a girls bachelorette party come join us. At first, I was offended...thinking who crashes a high school reunion? They just came in the door and started dancing like they owned the place. Then, a few of our classmates joined in. The pictures tell it all. The girls in the pictures are total strangers!

Thank you to the committee who met and helped make all of the decisions. (Kurt, Zach, Courtney, Mike and Kelly) You guys were a great to work with!

I just want to say special thank you to Kelly Underwood Elders...without you I know we would not have pulled it off!!

See everyone in 10? Some were saying they would like to do it again in 5? Either way I hope we can get more to come to our next one!!

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

From the abundance of the heart...

My 10 year class reunion is quickly approaching. I've been planning, along with five of my classmates, since May. We've been trying our best to make it as nice as possible since we missed our 5 year reunion. We've learned through the process that we can't make everybody happy. No matter what...we will charge too much, have terrible food and the music will be awful. But, I think we all have thick enough skin to not take anything personal. After all, it's not about what kind of food we have, it's about having the opportunity to see each other again. Our ultimate goal is for everyone to have a good time!!

With that being said...today I ran into a former classmate. Since I hadn't received his RSVP, I asked him if he would be coming to the reunion. The response I got was something like this, "Uh, no probably not. I've, uh, got plans that weekend." And my response..."Oh, OK...loser!" (with a smile, of course) I shocked myself with that response! Where did that come from? It just sort of flowed out of my mouth without a second thought!

And then I was reminded of the scripture...Luke 6:45-...For out of the abundance of his heart his mouth speaks.

You see...even though it has been 10 years...and time heals a lot of wounds...I will still never forget him for the cheater he was. He hurt my best friend in high school...actually two of my really close friends. And although I don't dwell on it...and honestly haven't thought about it since...I guess deep down I still really don't care for the guy. I know, I know...Forgiveness... That's the Christian thing to do. I don't have hard feelings anymore...it's just I couldn't believe I said that. And to top it off with an expression like "Loser." LOL...Who says that anyway?

Well, I hope that everyone is planning on coming to the reunion! We are up to about 60 people. It's going to be a great time! It will be fun to see everyone and reminisce about the "Good Ole' Days" I can't wait!! :) See ya'll there!!

Sunday, August 29, 2010


It's been awhile since my last blog. Lots of exciting things have been happening around here!! If you've seen my profile picture of Facebook you've probably noticed I've been "boasting" my brand new 2010 Ford Edge. Yes, I did say Ford! I know what you may be thinking..."Seriously, Krista?" But, Scism made us a deal (to shut us up...they received their second letter from the BBB...he he he) So, I'm pretty excited. I have to say all of the prayers worked. Thank you, LORD!!

I had my first full week of school last week. All I have to say is that I am the luckiest teacher alive! My class is GREAT!! Thank you again, God, for taking care of me!!;)

So, on to what has been on my mind lately! As you may have been noticing in my status updates on FB, I have been working on getting back into shape and losing weight. I have my ten year class reunion coming up in a little over two weeks so that has been a little inspiration behind everything. So far I am down 10 lbs. since May. I am surrounded by people who are constantly dieting and excercising...which is great for the support...but after listening to some conversations I took a step back and evaluated some things. It seems to me for some people all that matters in life is to be a certain number on the scale...or wearing a certain size. I guess I just don't get it. I mean, yes, it feels great to lose a pound or two. I'm the first to admit I love to report back to Jake and tell him my accomplishments...and I'm glad that I have a great friend at school that I can tell anything and everything to!! But, why does it have to be your ENTIRE life? Why does how much you've lost or how much you've gained have to be the essence of every conversation? Maybe because that is what we are surrounded by in the media? Beautiful, skinny girls? I just think that is crazy!! I think if you feel good about yourself and your a healthy...that is ALL that matters!!

I tried out Weight Watchers for a month. I lost 5 lbs. It has worked for A LOT of people that I know. They all look AWESOME and I am so very proud of them. I stopped going simply because I couldn't see myself counting points for the rest of my life. To me, that is just not life and to be honest it was quite costly...$40 a month. So, when I stopped going I joined the gym...$25.00 a month. Money well spent in my opinion. Now, THAT is a life change. I watch what I eat but more importantly I am exercising and working on the fitness side of things. I think when you have a good balance between diet and exercise you will have the best results!!

In no way am I bashing Weight Watchers...it is a great program (although they say they are not a "program")...it just didn't work for me. Maybe it is lack of self control on my part...I don't know. I'm just glad I found something that does work for me and fits into my lifestyle!!

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Mission Impossible

First of all, I have to say that I love my husband dearly. There is a reason God brought us together. I'm almost certain it was so that I could ALWAYS find laughter in my life...even in the darkest hour! LOL Because "ALL that I'm after is a life full of laughter...blah, blah, blah!

Last night, Halle came into our bedroom around 1:30 a.m. Jake put her in between us and we all fell fast asleep. An hour later Jake came over to my side of the bed and told me he "thought" someone was in our house. Naturally, I panic as any girl would. My heart started frantically beating uncontrollably. I asked him if he had his gun. Afterall we sleep with it right by our heads. Keep in mind this isn't just any gun this is a shotgun!! So we quietly walked out of our room and walked down the extremely long hallway. As we came to each room we flipped on the lights as he pointed his gun into the EMPTY room. I am sure you are envisioning those CSI shows or cop movies where they have their backs against the wall...Yep, it was exactly like that. Only he in his boxers and me in my T-Shirt...LOL!! We made it to the living room when all of a sudden we heard a door slam shut. He pointed his gun at the front door where he thought he heard the door slam shut. We have a bathroom right by the front door. He whispered, "Go get the phone." So I ran into the kitchen and grabbed the phone. I came back and he said, "Call 911!" In my mind I'm thinking "Is he serious? OMG, what do I say when I get an operator on the phone" "Um, I think we have an intruder in our house?" "What if there is not an intruder and the cops come to our house? We would look like total idiots." So, I said outloud, "Are you serious?" He said, "Well, someone just heard me cock my gun...and I'm sure about now they have pee running down both legs...if they step out they are going to have a hole blown through them." I decided not to call. If you know my husband at all..he tends to be a little dramatic...ok, ok, A LOT dramatic!! He got brave somewhere in between me calling 911 and him cocking his gun and he walked toward the front door. He flipped on the bathroom light...nobody there...he went to the dining room...nobody there. We went back through the kitchen...nobody there...through to the mud room...nobody there...I think you get the idea. NOBODY THERE!! LOL!!

I know it certainly would not be funny had there been someone in our house. Better safe than sorry, they say...But, I couldn't help but wake up with a smile on my face!! That boy keeps me smiling!! :)

Thursday, August 12, 2010

That's All Folks...

It is so hard to believe this summer is over. Eventhough it hasn't been the best summer I've ever had...it has been a memorable one!! I know one day I'll say, "Remember that summer I didn't have a car?" I've always heard that "One day you'll look back and laugh at this." I'm thinking it will never be funny to me.

Halle and I have had a great time together. Somedays I wondered how a two year old could be so difficult...you just can't reason with a two year old. It's funny how one minute kids drive you insane and then the very next minute they can be so sweet and you remember you weren't completely nuts when you decided to have children.

We accomplished quite a bit this summer without a vehicle. We ventured to the Zoo and Six Flags (first time for Halle), we also went to the Water Park (which Halle LOVED!! That kid has no fear of water or HUGE slides) We went shopping several times and swam at "Nina's" house...a LOT!! I guess when I type it all down it doesn't seem like we accomplished much in 3 months...but "Hey, what would you do without a car?"

Next week is going to be very different for us. We will be getting back into a routine. Which I can't wait for!! But with routine that means spending less time with my baby and at home, early bedtime and early wake ups!! An extra $260 a month in daycare...UGH!! (If they consider her potty trained) I think they will! ;)

I always look forward to a new school year. I've been working in my room for a few weeks now. I always think I'm done and then I think of other things to do. Or I discover that my two year old colored all over my bulletin board. It never seems to get done...but I told a few people yesterday if they see me in there before Monday, "Shoot me!" I am as "done" as I can be!

So my plan for the next four days is to focus on Halle and get my house in order before the craziness begins!! Four more days, teachers!! Make the most of it!! ;)

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

To Whom it May Concern:

To Whom it May Concern:

I am writing this letter to inform you of my dissatisfaction with my 2003 Lincoln Aviator. My vehicle was brought in to be serviced on May 26, 2010. It is now August 10, 2010 and I am still without a vehicle. 75 days and counting. I have now made three car payments and have not had this car in my possession. I am an elementary school teacher who looks forward to a summer vacation of traveling and relaxing. Unfortunately, this summer has been far from enjoyable. It has been a time of emotional stress as I’ve been without my vehicle for the entire summer break. I will return to school in less than one week. I guarantee the Ford company in my area will be tremendously affected by my dissatisfaction as everyone in my community knows what I have been through.

I come from a family who have always purchased Ford products. My husband and I have owned several Fords and honestly after this experience I’m not sure I will ever own a Ford product again. I have taken my vehicle now to four different mechanics. The first mechanic we took our Aviator to was Sam Scism Ford in Farmington, MO where it sat for 8 weeks straight.
We were told the problem required 9 hours of labor. There were issues with two coil packs, a burned valve, oil seals, a cam sensor, and timing gears. Our brake pedal sensor had to be replaced as well as our back latch. We also had to replace the Catalytic Converter. All of these things had to be replaced on a vehicle that only has 68,800 miles on it. We have now paid hundreds of dollars out of our pocket and my vehicle is still sitting in the service department.

After Scism said our vehicle was fixed we drove it for approximately 30 miles and the check engine light came back on. It ran worse than when we brought it to them. They told us the issue was with the Catalytic Converter so we took it to S&S Muffler and had that repaired. After about another 30 miles the check engine light came back on. This time the vehicle missed as you accelerated. We took it to an independent mechanic and we were advised to take it to a different Ford mechanic (Not Scism) as the issues were too serious for them to touch. We reluctantly drove our vehicle 45 miles away to the next closest Ford dealership, Festus Ford, where it now resides. On August 5, they called us and said they thought they had the issues resolved. They told us that the coil packs that Scism replaced was part of the problem as well as melted wiring. They informed us that it is was a “wiring mess.” I made it home and the check engine light came right back on. I drove it back up on August 6 to have them look at it again. They replaced parts that we already paid Sam Scism for. We have now paid over 1,200 out of our pocket, not counting what our warranty company has paid out. On August 9, Festus Ford called us back again and said our vehicle was ready to go. This time we were smart and decided to drive it around close to the dealer so that when the check engine light came back on we could take it right back in. As you can see we have little faith in Ford. Sure enough within 10 miles it was back on. It is so hard for me to believe that all of these things could be issues (and I'm certain more to come) with only 68,800 miles. I truly believe this is a Lincoln issue. I believe we were sold a lemon. Unfortunately, we were not the first owner of this vehicle or I'm sure we would qualify under the Lemon Law. We had planned on trading this vehicle in on a new Ford Edge. However, after this incident we may never buy a Ford product again.

To this date, Festus Ford has not figured out what the issue is. It is frightening to my husband and I what they may call and tell us the “real” problem is. We have no idea what is in store for us financially with this vehicle. All we have done this summer is put money into it and it still isn't running properly. As you can see we are beyond frustrated. I'm completely stressed out. This is our primary vehicle. I've had to borrow my father's primary vehicle most of this time. This has not only affected me directly but also my entire family.

My point in writing this letter is to try to get this issue resolved in one way or another. I believe I have a great case with all of the documentation I have. I have always loved Ford products. Up until this emotionally, stressful ordeal I’ve believed in Ford products. I am begging that someone change my mind about Ford. I want to be a longtime customer. In this industry, I think it is vital to keep customers satisfied, as the market is extremely competitive. Unfortunately, if something is not done, I will never purchase another Ford product again and my attorney will be contacted. I do not want to take it that far.

Thank you so much for your time.


Krista Wilson

Monday, August 2, 2010

...and the pool clears :)

Jake comes from a HUGE family. He has five brothers and sisters. All together there are 18 grandchildren between all of them. Crazy big!! We all went to Salem for the funeral services for Jake's grandmother. We decided it would be better for all of us if we stayed in a hotel since we had visitation on Sunday evening and funeral on Monday. All six "Wilson kids" and their families stayed at the Holiday Inn Express in Salem. Between all of us we had 11 children. At times 11 children can be overwhelming...embarrassing, loud, and obnoxious!! But, lastnight I got a little enjoyment out of having such a huge family.

Jake, Halle and I were enjoying the hot tub with Jake's sister and her boyfriend. The pool area was pretty small and there were at least 6 boys playing pretty rough in the pool while there mothers were all sitting enjoying their alcholoic beverages. Everything was fine until Halle decided she was finished with the hot tub. She wanted to walk around. The boys were throwing balls at eachother and getting really close to Halle. They could have turned their game the other direction to keep it safe for her...but they kept on. And their Mothers were not paying a bit of attention to what was going on.

So, I told Jake's sister how it would be hilarious once our crew made it down to the pool. I was pretty certain we could run anybody out of ANYPLACE! Ha ha...so his sister says, "I'll go tell them to hurry up and get down here." So, she does...and about 2 minutes later the first kid entered the pool area. He took off running and jumped right in the middle of the pool...totally cleared the rope!! Soon after the rest of them trickled in...It wasn't 10 seconds...literally...and we cleared the entire pool area! I couldn't help but get a little enjoyment out of it...

Big families may be a bit overwhelming at times...but in times like these they come in awful handy!! ;)

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Hanging by a moment

Today has been a rough day...

My mother-in-law called this morning and told me that Grandma Wilson was not responding and they had made the decision to stop her pacemaker.

We went to see her last night. She was sitting up and talking. She told of us of her visions she had of a naked man running around in a field.:) Aunt Barbara, Grandma's sister, has been staying with her since she found out the cancer was back. Barbara was telling me a story, a few feet away and very quietly, about how Grandma said she didn't have any underwear. Grandma overheard Aunt Barbara telling me this and she said, "You can borrow mine if you want...I won't be needing them." :) She was a funny lady. Someone who ALWAYS spoke her mind...and I loved her for it. She was kind, honest and loving. She was a real Grandma. The kind of Grandma that picks up her grandkids 70 miles away and keeps them ALL weekend. The kind of Grandma that raises her grandchildren. She loved all of her grandchildren. But, I think there was a special place in her heart for Jake. Jake went to live with her around the age of 12. I know this is especially hard on him.

Today was just surreal to me. I have never witnessed someone slipping into the "other life." It was exactly how I think she would have wanted it. She was surrounded by her grandchildren. Everybody that she loved was right by her side. It was painful and there were lots of tears. Halle asked me, "Why are you sad, Momma?" I told her that Grandma was sick. She suggested to get a doctor. Children are so cute. But, I explained that Grandma was going to live with Jesus. I think they understand more than we think.

Through all the pain that we feel now...it is amazing to know that she is dancing in heaven with NO polio! She doesn't have that nasty colostomy bag! She can breathe on her own with no machines. She is with Grandpa Wilson and better yet she is with Jesus!! I can't imagine all of the sights she is seeing now!! It is so awesome that we have the promise of heaven. A place that I can not even fathom!! We have the promise of seeing Grandma again!!

Please keep the Wilson family in your thoughts and prayers. Life will not be the same without Grandma Wilson.

And still..

Fighting the fight until I see His face...

Potty Training Saga

I hate to admit failure anytime. But, I especially hate to admit failure with Halle. This potty training thing was a cinch...the first six weeks! I wasn't afraid to go anywhere without a diaper. We went to the Zoo and Six Flags diaper free!! Literally she was accident free for six weeks straight. Now we are back to our old ways. She wakes up wet again...where before she woke up dry for six weeks solid. She does o.k. with the #2, which is great for me! But, the trouble is the wetting. It's like she gets so busy with what she is doing and forgets to tell me.

I need suggestions. I know there are a lot of parents who read my blogs. If you have any suggestions, hints, tricks...whatever it takes...I'm all ears!!

I'm so ready to pay less at daycare. That was my summertime goal!! $40 less a month...plus no diaper expense!!

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

My Terrbile, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day...:)

I know the Elementary teachers out there saw the title and recognized it as a book that we read to our students. I always read this book to my class. It is about a boy name Alexander and he has a Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day. Mostly because he has to go to the dentist and he doesn't get a toy in his cereal box. But, to a kid that is an awful day!!

I kind of had one of those days. I would just call it a "No Good" day though...I had been anticipating all weekend taking my stupid car back into Scism. Every time I thought about it I got this sick feeling in my stomach. My mom called it a "God" thing. And she might be right. But, I didn't like how they treated us at Scism and eventhough I truly feel they messed something up I hated the thought of taking it back to the people who had it for 8 weeks!! So, I called "James", with that sick feeling in my stomach, and he says, "We can't look at it until tomorrow. All of our techs are at a class in St. Louis." I wanted to say, "GOOD that is exactly where they need to be!" But, I refrained myself.

Immediately I got mad...really mad...I felt like they should make my car a priority...when I get that mad I usually cry. If you know me at all..you know I am NOT a "cryer." There are very few things that can make me cry. Too much stress is a definite crying moment...but it takes a lot! :) My husband...he can push the crying button...but not often...And being in the presence of the Lord...that gets me everytime. :)

Anyway, I got off the phone and called my Warranty guy, Justin. He has been very helpful. He told me that if it is a warranty issue (which most likely it will be...because Scism isn't going to take responsibility for anything) he will not be able to deal with Scism. Whew...that was a relief. I didn't want to take it there anyway but he just reassured me that unless we wanted to pay out of pocket it would be better if we took it somewhere else.

So, I got on the phone with a mechanic that was recommended to us. I told them that my brother-in-law said they were very honest and did good work...and do you know what the lady said? "God bless your brother-in-law" Ah! What a sign of relief! She blessed my B.I.L.!

I decided I needed to go do some "retail therapy." Unfortunately, my shopping buddy (mom) was at the hospital with her dad. My grandma called and said her and my cousin were going to the city to pick out a stroller/car seat for baby Jozlyn. So, I tagged along...me and the brat...I mean, Halle! :) But first I had to drop my car off at this mechanic. So, as I was trying to get Halle's car seat out of Dad's car (God bless my dad for letting me use his car) I locked the keys into it...with her seat. Which I needed out in order to leave my house in my broken car. About 40 minutes later, I was rescued by my dad and we were on our way...Finally!

Halle was good in the car. But, terrible everywhere else! Seriously I've never seen her act like she did in those stores. We only went to Target and Babies R Us. It was awful...she wanted out of the cart and preceeded to go through the clothes saying, "This is cute..I like this one." I know, it sounds cute but when you are on a mission and have your own agenda...it is not cute at all!! Poor Grandma and Amy.

That was my day. See, it wasn't too bad. :)

I guess Jake could tell it wasn't a good day because he actually helped me with the dishes lastnight. Bless that boy!

Friday, July 23, 2010

Stop the INSANITY!! :)

Over the last few weeks I have found myself quite overwhelmed! I feel like everything is finally CRASHING DOWN ON ME!! After leaving Wal-Mart this evening the following thoughts crossed my mind...bare with me. My body is screaming at me, "STOP PUSHING ME SO HARD!"(I literally pushed my body to the limit this week in workouts. Burning on average 800 calories a day.) My car is screaming at me, "SLOW DOWN...I'm STILL not fixed." (Seriously, after taking it in today to get what we thought could have been the problem...it is still running terrible and the check engine light...yeah, still on!!)My cash flow is screaming at me, "GO BACK TO SCHOOL...THIS HAS BEEN AN EXPENSIVE SUMMER!!" (Ex: $1100 A/C unit, $798 Rental Car, $980 Refrigerator, $700 car repairs) Seriously, we could have went on a HECK of a vacation this summer for that price!! Halle is screaming at me, "I wanna watch Dowa, Dwagon Tales, Calliou, Ber Bears...etc, etc, etc...I want Apple Juice, I want cheetos, I need to go poop, I need to go pee pee, I want Daddy!" (AHHH...This is exactly why I am not a stay at home mom!! I love my daughter and I cherish my time with her...but I NEED to go to work...for myself!! Plus I love my job!! :))My house is screaming at me, "NO MORE TOYS!!" And then, to top it all off my husband is screaming at me..."You are ALWAYS in such a BAD mood." "Hateful" he refers to me...Seriously? GRRRRR...

I need to get away!! Seriously!!

On another note...I've taken on a huge job with getting this class reunion together. All I can say is "Thank God for Facebook." Today I spent a few hours with Court labeling envelopes...140 envelopes...with 3 labels each plus a stamp...GEEZ it was a lot of work!! (Thanks, Court for all your help!!) I mailed 70 invitations out today...and I'm hoping everyone will be responsible and send their money back soon!! Six of us are paying for everything out of our pockets!! Yikes!!

One more thing...while I am on my gripe session...I'm tired of being told that something is going to be done on a certain day...and it NOT be!! Ahem...Brockmiller Construction...you are about to tick off a bunch of Elementary Teachers if you don't turn on our electricity!! We just need lights and air conditioner...That's all!! :)

I know I sound like a huge BABY!! :) But, I felt the need to get it off my chest...and now I feel better!!

Happy Friday!!

Monday, July 19, 2010

Tomorrow, Please Come!!

My car went into Sam Scism Ford on May 26. It has been nearly 8 weeks since I left it there. I am beyond frustrated and I feel like I've done all that I can to get the issues resolved. I contacted BBB, Attorney General and Ford Motor Co. I also emailed FOX 2 news my story today. I don't know what else to do.

I am supposed to get it back tomorrow. But, I'm pretty sure I've heard that before...about 12 times AT LEAST!! Seriously. I've even heard them say "We want this car out of here TOMORROW!" or "We promise it will be finished TOMORROW!" "First thing TOMORROW it will be finished!" I am SOOO sick of it!!

Today, Jake called on his lunch and they told him that it was up and running and once they get payment from the warranty company it will be ready to go. Then, I call the warranty company because I wanted to make sure they had been contacted. Justin and I are on first name basis! He told me that Scism had to replace the catalytic converter which is not covered under warranty. Then, Scism called Jake and told him...$1900 is what we owe them. Uh, I don't think so...I REFUSE to pay it...

So long story short...ha ha...they took the new catalytic converter off and put the old one back on...and everything is working fine? Really? We'll see. All I know is that I am not going to be stuck with this $1900 bill! So, now all we are waiting on is payment from the warranty company. Please pray that all goes well and payment is received and I can get my car back TOMORROW!!

The saying "Tomorrow never comes" could not be more real to me!! Seriously!

Sunday, July 18, 2010

1, 2...(Time to make a decision)

This weekend has been very challenging for me. Jake has been gone since Friday morning and I have been a "single parent" for about 36 hours now. I want to first of all say... hats off to EVERY single parent out there. I can't imagine doing it by myself 24/7!!

Anyway, these challenges have been not only parenting alone...but also staying by myself at night. Which I might add I've adjusted to well! Today, I went shopping with two of my sister-in-laws...and 5 little girls...8 and under!! CRAZY, right?! So, during lunch I look over at Halle, who is smooshing her noodles in her hands and making a complete mess out of her fettucine, and I start to count.1....2...and she stops. See I have this "teacher look" that I use with my 2nd Graders. All I have to do is give them "the look" and they know that I'm not happy and they better straighten up and make me happy very fast!! Well this "look" also works with my two year old...most of the time. Although usually I have to give the look and say 1....2.... Come on parents...you know you've done it! So, one of my sister-in-laws says, "That doesn't work for me...Abby would just say 3!!" That made me do some reflecting (because that is what we do as teachers). Why does Halle always stop after 2? Is it because she knows she has a limit? What happens after 2? Thankfully, my 2 year knows that if I say 3 it usually means either time out...which she hates...or a spanking...which she hates even more. It doesn't usually get that far. But I can say this...if she pushes me to say 3...I follow through.

One thing I learned in my years of taking education courses was that you must follow through! If you promise something...follow through...if you threaten something...follow through! Otherwise your students (or your own kids) will know there is nothing you can do that is really ALL that bad. I like to get my bluff in on Day 1 with my 2nd graders!! he he I also have my bluff in on my 2 year old...and I'm hoping it will last for at least the next 16 years!!

So, if you are a "counter" in your parenting...like me...just make sure you decide what will happen after 2. Be consistent and follow through. :)

Friday, July 16, 2010

Five Question Friday...because I'm bored!!

My friend, Jessica, sometimes posts a 5QF on Fridays and I love reading them from her blog. I'm rather bored tonight because my hubby is off on a Boys Only camping trip. Me and the Hal-Bug are winding down. I decided to put her in my bed tonight because I'm a little freaked out in this big house by myself. This is the first night I've stayed here by myself...unless you count the night my husband pulled an "ALL NIGHTER" on me! But, I won't go into that...it still makes me mad!! :(

1. Do you collect anything?

I used to collect Coca-Cola stuff for my kitchen. My kitchen was decorated in Coke in Steelville and in Park Hills. I was pretty tired of looking at it so it now serves its purpose in our "wet bar" area since we aren't alcohol drinkers! LOL

2. Name 3 celebrities that you find good looking.

In no certain order...Matthew McConaughey,Ryan Reynolds, and Bradley Cooper

3. Do you have any scars? If so, what's the story behind it (them?)?

I have two scars on my face. One closer to my ear...(a dog attacked me) and the other is on my chin...my brother and I were shopping at Kroger (back when my daddy worked there) and we flipped the cart over and I fell out and hit my chin. Where was my mother? LOL

Then, I have another awful scar on my leg from a mole that had to be removed. Yuck!! And on my knee I have scars from falling down all of the time as a kid.

Oh and I can't forget the cigarette burn on my wrist. That was from my dad when I was six weeks old. During a nighttime feeding...everybody smokes with their tiny infant, right? Uh, NO!! Yeah, I'm thinking my parents weren't so great...What do you think? LOL The only good thing about that deal was...he stopped smoking shortly after that incident.

4. What is a food that you like to eat, but others might think it's gross or weird?

I really can't think of anything gross or weird that I like to eat. Call me boring!!

5. Have you ever seen a tornado in real life?
I've never seen a tornado...but I was most definitely in one!! I was going to college at MOBAP at the JeffCo campus when those tornados came through. It went right over the top of us and hit DeSoto. Then, I preceeded to drive home in it!! It was one of the scarier times I can remember in my life!! And most definitely one of the dumbest things I could have done!!

Well, I guess that is it for 5QF! Did you learn anything new about me?

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Life is NOT a Snapshot

If you have been following me at all this summer you know that I have not had the best summer of my life. It all started out with my car (which, by the way, I still don't have back...we are one day shy of 7 weeks) Then, went on to my air conditioner($1100)...Family issues...and now Life issues. It has been pretty horrific!

As bad as it has been I've still enjoyed spending my summer with Halle. I guess I have always been an optimist. I try to look at the good things in life and realize that "This, too, shall pass!" Thank God..."Life is not a snapshot"...because if you took a snapshot of my summer, you might think that I lead a very depressing life! :)

Fortunately for me...I can see the bigger picture...no matter how bad things go in this life...I do know how it will all end. I will spend eternity with my savior, Jesus! What more could I want, right? I mentioned this quote that I heard on a video earlier..."Fighting the fight until I see His face." I can't seem to shake that from my mind. I feel like life struggles are a constant fight but the ultimate gift will be seeing His face!! I can not imagine trying to live this life without faith.

So, here is to "Fighting the fight until WE see His face!!"

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Fighting the fight until I see His face...:)

This is for my dear friends Courtney and Jacob...

Before the Morning-Josh Wilson

Do you wonder why you have to
Feel the things that hurt you
If there’s a God who loves you where is He now

Maybe there are things you can’t see
And all those things are happening
To bring a better ending

Someday somehow you’ll see you’ll see

Would you dare would you dare to believe
That you still have a reason to sing
Cause the pain that you’ve been feeling
It can’t compare to the joy that’s coming
So hold on you gotta wait for the light
Press on and just fight the good fight
Cause the pain that you’ve been feeling
It’s just the dark before the morning

My friend you know how this all ends
You know where you’re going
You just don’t know how you’ll get there
So say a prayer

And hold on cause there’s good for those who love God
But life is not a snapshot
It might take a little time but you’ll see the bigger picture

Once you feel the weight of glory
All your pain will fade to memory

It’s just the hurt before the healing
Oh the pain that you’ve been feeling
It’s just the dark before the morning

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Angry at God...

I think sometimes it is o.k. to be angry at God. I think we are "allowed" these moments where we ask Him "Why?" I'm having one of those moments...unfortunately it won't be just a moment...it will be more like months.

My best friend is being faced with one of the most HORRIFIC things I could ever imagine. I honestly can't wrap my mind around it. She is 5 months pregnant and was told today that her baby has a disease that is not compatible with life. She has the choice to either terminate...which she doesn't feel comfortable with...or continue to carry this baby until she is 34 weeks. The baby may only live minutes in this life.

I have to believe everything happens for a reason...but I hate when people tell me that. Yes, I know it...but when I'm hurting (and I am hurting...for my friend) I don't want to hear that there is a reason this baby was created only to take it away from this loving family. I'm so mad at God.

Please join me in prayer for this family. They need strength, understanding...but most of all PEACE!!

Monday, July 5, 2010

Summer Thoughts...

Fourth of July wasn't the same this year. But, we all had a great time! Some of the Wilson family came over...I think we only managed to have about 20 this go round...it's usually more like 45ish...Adults are WAY outnumbered by kids. That is a really scary thought! After our BBQ, slip n slide and washers game we all went to watch the Farmington Fireworks. I've never seen their display. It was really good. But, I have to say the shortest display I've ever been to. We sat in the parking lot waiting to get out longer than the actual "show." It was still fun...and Halle loved them! It was great watching her face light up!!

Today the Wilson brothers and wives went to the river. We had a lot of fun...but I am DRAINED. I had every intention of going to the gym to spin this evening. But, I don't see that happening. I'm so glad I atleast ran this morning. I should have listened to Annie...and got it over with this morning!! ;)

I was told this morning that my classroom was finished. I cringed at the thought. The funny thing is I actually complained once this summer wondering when it was going to be done..."WHY, on Earth would I have done that?" Now that it is done I feel the "need" to go work. YUCK!! I'm always so excited to get a new class of students. But, once I get started...summer vacation is over...:( I don't stop until it is done! I sometimes wonder why I didn't become a Middle School teacher (I am NOT that crazy)...or even better...High School. There is SO MUCH MORE PREPERATION for the Elementary teachers. It is crazy and sometimes "it's not fair." :)

I am just waiting for Wal-Mart to put their back to school stuff out. I didn't go today...but I'm betting it is already in the works! NOOOOOO!!!!

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Family Tradition

I have to say that the 4th of July is one of my favorite holidays. I'm not really sure why. As a teacher it marks the halfway point of my summer vacation...which means it is all down hill from here...YIKES!! I guess I love it so much because I enjoy spending time with my family. BBQ, yard games, swimming, fireworks, and a whole lot of sibling competition...what more could you ask for? Well, this year is different. I was talking to my sister-in-law, Amber yesterday and I said, "I'm just sad this year." See, my parents decided to go on vacation this year over the 4th. Which means two things for me. One, no 4th of July celebration at their house...:( and TWO, I get their 3 dogs...(YAY, me!! Unfortunately I am the only kid with a fenced in yard! WOO-HOO!!)

I would consider my family very traditional. You never have to ask where we will spend each holiday. I know that the Saturday before Christmas will ALWAYS be spent with my Aunt Linda. I also know that Christmas Eve will be spent at my parents house...Easter we have lunch at my Grandma's house...and so on!! 4th of July is ALWAYS at my parents house...EVERYONE comes out and we have a great time!! Not this year...But, I'm a big girl and I'm going to try not to pout about it. Ha ha...

I am very glad that Mom and Dad get to go on vacation. They are in Williamsburg. On the agenda that I know of...Washington D.C. & Virginia Beach. I'm sure there is more too. They will have a great time. Funny thing is...when they go away...they aren't like normal people. (Check the mail...feed the cat, etc.) No, they spent the whole evening before delivering dogs, a duck, and duck eggs.(Yes, I said DUCKS!!) They have a MASSIVE garden that has to be watered and three cats to be taken care of.

I'm determined to have a HAPPY 4th of July this year and I hope everybody else does too. We'll be spending this year at our house with all of the Wilson's. Should be a lot of fun..:)

I guess I better get off here and start preparing!!

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Sticks and Stones may break my bones...

It is very hard for me to find the right words to say today. Bear with me as I try to express my feelings today. Ha Ha...

To start off today's blog I must tell you that I love my family with all my heart. And it is my prayer that EVERY single one of them will find the "peace" that I spoke about earlier in the week.

There are a lot of words that come to mind when I think of my Grandma Pat. The first word that comes to mind is GIVING. I think anybody who knows her would agree that she is the most giving person in the world. I promise you, if she only had $20 to her name and she thought one of her kids/grandkids needed it she would make sure they got it. Her kids and grandkids do not go without. I always remember going to her house and NEVER being able to walk away without her slipping money in my purse. And I think ALL of my cousins can agree she does it with them too! Her Love Language is most definitely "Acts of Service." That is how she demonstrates her love to others.

With that being said, she has been under a lot of stress lately due to the illness of my great grandmother. It has come to the point that she can not be left alone anymore. She forgets things and although seemingly healthy , her cancer is now back. I realize that this kind of stress can cause families to act out of the ordinary. However, in no way does it excuse the way that some of her so-called "family" is treating her. Terrible things have been said to her...things that can not be taken back. Things that literally hurts my heart to even hear. It is so hard to watch someone you love so much...get hurt! It hurts me. I take it to heart. This is MY grandma and I'm pretty sure I could take on anybody who tries to hurt her!! :)

I am reminded of something I used to say as a kid, "Sticks and stones may break my bones...but words can never hurt me." Really? How absurd is that? Sure, it hurts to break a bone...but, bones heal...Words on the other hand are forever embedded in your mind...they cut like a knife...it is very hard to forget words...They MOST definitely hurt you!!

A good friend of mine sent me this scripture today...it was so much needed at the exact time it was sent. So, I'm going to share it with you.

"...For we have no power against this great multitude coming against us; nor do we know what to do, But our eyes are upon You...Then the Spirit of the Lord came upon Jahaziel...thus says the Lord to you: "Do not be afraid nor dismayed because of the great multitude for the battle is not yours, but God's...You will not need to fight in this battle. Position yourselves, stand still and see the salvation of Lord, who is with you.

2 Chronicles 20:12-17

We are not going to fight this battle!!

Please be in prayer with me for PEACE for my family during this difficult time.

I'm so hoping my next blog will be light and free!! LOL!! I'm tired of all this heartache!!

Sunday, June 27, 2010

...and He came to my rescue...

All week long I've been struggling with "life" in general. It's been a tough week to say the least.

I got a new mP3 player in the mail and I began downloading music from my computer. As I was going through this long process of downloading, I came across a song. I hadn't heard this song in at least a year, probably longer. As I listened to this song it totally spoke to my heart. I realized what I needed was RESCUED and the only person who could do the kind of rescuing that I needed was God. So, all week I saturated myself with this worship song...it was the only thing giving me peace!!

I got up this morning and fixed breakfast...got ready for church and as I was ironing my dress I decided to listen to that song one more time before I left...I just needed "rescued" again before I left for church...(I know weird..right?)

I got to church feeling o.k. The worship team began singing songs...during one song in particular I leaned over to Jake and said, "I'm not liking this song." He just shrugged.

The preacher got up and took offering. And as the music began playing I soon realized it was this song that I stumbled across by accident. This song that I haven't heard our worship team sing in I don't even know how long. Call it a coincidence if you will...I call it GOD!! I think it was totally for me at that exact time. He knew ecactly what I needed! They could have sang a million other songs...but they chose this one. WOW!!

It's amazing how God works. He is so awesome! Believe it or not, our sermon today was about "PEACE." And how we need to find peace before we fall to "pieces." Amazing! How I needed to hear that. I seriously thought I was on the verge of falling to pieces...But He came to my rescue!! "There is no need to worry about tomorrow." Pastor said at one point. And I thought to myself...EXACTLY! Why am I worried about anything? God has everything in control!! That's the great thing about being a Christian!! Someone better than us guiding our footsteps!

Life is not always easy...but faith makes it possible!!

So, I'm going to leave you with the lyrics to this song! It's short but the words say so much!! If you haven't listened to it, you need to. :)

This is my prayer...
In my life...be lifted high
In my world...be lifted high
In my love...be lifted high

Hillsong United

Falling on my knees in worship
Giving all I am to seek your face
Lord all I am is yours

My whole life
I place in your hands
God of Mercy
Humbled I bow down
In your presence at your throne

I called you answered
And you came to my rescue and I
I wanna be where you are

In my life be lifted high
In our world be lifted high
In our love be lifted high

Friday, June 25, 2010

And THAT is life...

I've had a rough day...and I think the only thing that is going to make me feel better is to blog about it...

My day started out as usual. Me and Halle got ready, went to Wal-Mart, picked up my pictures from Emily and I tried to drop off Halle with my brother so I could go to the funeral home. Halle didn't want to stay so I just took her with me. The funeral was awful!! I saw classmates that I hadn't seen in years. They were the people who were close to Jason throughout school and probably still were. I speculate that some of them may not be on the right path in life. My heart literally breaks when I think about the lives they are leading. I talked with Jason's sister. She told me that his church he attended was sending him into rehab on Monday. Why, God? I just don't understand. I walked out an emotional wreck. It was unreal to see someone 28 years old (my age) laying in a casket. But, that is life...right? We have a day to be born and a day to die. But, why...God? Why so soon?

So, I leave with an even heavier heart than I walked in. I got a call from my A/C guy who was bringing a part to fix my unit. He said he'd be by sometime after lunch. I had a few errands to run first. On my way I get pulled over by a cop. Who, just for fun decides to run my license plates...only to discover they are to a truck? Mind you, I'm in a rental car...totally not mine! Halle is hungry and tired and crying...Any mom knows how nerve wracking it is to have a crying baby in the car. He called Enterprise told me I should go down and trade out cars. So, I go down there..still with a tired, hungry little girl...and I wait and wait and wait! Finally, my turn...I was told...we don't have any cars on the lot right now. Come back later. AHHHH!! But, that is life...right?

Let me back up...My car went into the shop on May 26. Tomorrow marks June 26! The warranty company will only pay for TWO days of rental car. Because it is only a 9 hour labor job! It's been in there an entire month!!!! BUT, that is life...right?

My A/C guy shows up...he's here awhile. My husband sent me a text asking about it. I said..."It's been awhile and it isn't up and running...I have a bad feeling." Well, rightly so...$1100...and we have to get a new furnace. Now mind you, I get an extra check in the summer for logging hours throughout the school year. It will be close to $1,000. I'm very thankful to be getting that. But, I had plans for that money!! It makes me soooo sad it will be spent on an A/C. But, that is life...right?

I just don't understand how some people ALWAYS come out ahead...no matter what...they get what they want and they don't care who they screw in the process. I just don't get it...I don't wish bad things on people. But, I think that when you do things dishonestly...when you lie...and cheat and steal from people...you shouldn't EVER come out ahead.


Monday, June 21, 2010

Where Will YOU Spend Eternity?

It is with a heavy heart that I write this blog tonight.

I found out this morning that CHS Class of 2000 lost a classmate last night. It makes me so sad. I believe this is the only classmate that we've lost in 10 years. Looking back I will always remember Jason as a guy who always kept everyone laughing. He was quite the jokester and always had a smile on his face. Unfortunately, he took the "hard road" in life as many of our classmates did. I think now, more than ever, it is important to make good choices in life...Godly choices. I don't know where Jason is spending eternity right now. It is my hope and prayer that he is spending it with my heavenly Father. As I reflect on that...it brings tears to my eyes. How many people come and go in our lives that we choose to not share the love of Jesus? Tonight, I feel like a failure. Not because I feel that I could have done anything to stop what happened to Jason. I hadn't seen him in more than 10 years...but I feel like I've failed my friends and family...the people that I love the most.

It is my prayer tonight that I can be a better Christian...that His light will shine through me and that He will give me a boldness that I've never known before. I've never been the "in-your-face" type of Christian. It is not in my nature to be that way. I just want to be a person who can make a difference in this world! "Whatever it takes, God! I'm Yours!"

I would like to leave my readers with a simple question.

If you just breathed your last breathe, where would you spend eternity? If you don't know...please don't wait a second longer! Ask Jesus to be the LORD of your life. You won't regret it! ;)

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Just Trying This Out...Parenting 101

This is officially my first blog. I'm just going to try this out and see how I like it. We'll see!

So far this summer I have watched Dora the Explorer, Barney and Kate Plus 8 over and over and OVER!! I'm about to go insane. There is only so much that I can take. I'm one of those terrible moms who allows her child to watch T.V. all day long!! I can get things done when she is entertained!! My child is going to be the one that has no "creativeness" when it comes time to go to school. YIKES!! Maybe I need to take a step back and reevaluate my parenting skills.

We are currently in the "potty-training" stage. I have to say I am rather proud of my little girl! She picked up on it quick and is doing rather well! Unfortunately, we had a little issue yesterday (thank God my husband was home) and another issue today (all by myself) with pooping in the underwear. You know, as I was trying my hardest to get the poopy underwear off of her and not getting any on my hands the thought crossed my mind..."Nobody prepared me for Poopy underwear!" I didn't know what to do. Do I throw them away? Heck no!! Too expensive. How do I wash them out? In the sink...ugh...or better yet...in the toilet? YUCK!! So, I resulted to sloshing them in the toilet the first time. I'm pretty sure I remember my Grandma Pat always doing that. Ha ha!! But, then today I was by myself. I took her to the utility room where I have a wash sink. I carefully rolled them down, making sure nothing touched her or myself. And then she flung her leg and kicked them off in the floor. I freaked a little...And instead of cleaning them in the toilet this time...I chose to use the garden hose outside. Ha ha...I'm sure my neighbors got a kick out of watching me hose my daughter's poopy undies out on the front lawn!! You know, I was totally ready for disgusting diapers! However, poopy underwear is a different story!

I'm thinking it's time for me to turn Barney off and get my Hal-bug ready for bed!!