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The Wilson's

Thursday, May 31, 2012

Best of Both Worlds

I have the best of both worlds! I get to do what I love to do...and know that I am called to do it...TEACHING! I also get to spend 3 1/2 months out of the year doing something else I love...being a stay at home mom. I love both of my worlds and I wouldn't change it for anything!!

I am so thankful that God has given me the opportunity to do both of my jobs. I feel that I do them both very well. Is it stressful to work outside of the home and maintain a happy & healthy family? Absolutely! Sometimes it is overwhelming. But, I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. The positive impact that I can make in a child's life far outweighs any stress that could come my way throughout the school year.

I admire both sides of the fence. The "stay at home" Moms have a tough job! Being the constant caregiver is difficult. There are never any breaks...especially if there are several children involved. The "working" mom also has a difficult job. They have to go out of their home to help make a living for their family. Time with children is limited to evenings. It isn't ideal but they do what they have to for their family!

I've said all of that to say this, "I am happy that I get to jump the fence!"

It creates a very good balance for me!!

Monday, May 28, 2012

God's Promises

I will not be sharing this with the Facebook world. However, I don't want to miss the opportunity to blog what just happened to us recently. If you happen to stumble upon this--then it was absolutely meant for you to see. Maybe your faith has been tested recently.

Just as mine has.

My husband and I have been TTC for 1 year. We finally hit our 1 year mark this month. It has been a complete life changer for me. Around the 6 month mark I found myself really becoming angry. I kept questioning God. Why are you allowing all of these people around me get pregnant? Everyone except me? Girls who are unmarried and unable to support babies on their own? Girls who kill babies...girls who don't love their babies as I know can?

Why? Why? Why, God?

I know I've went through different stages throughout the year. I started the year really feeling positive. "Awh...well, maybe next month?" or "It will happen on my birthday. Yeah, God wants to give me a birthday present I will never forget." or "Maybe Christmas morning?" "I know Mother's Day!" This went on for months. Each day being as positive as the last. Until finally I just fell before the Lord and just laid it all out. I had a complete meltdown in January. That is when God began working His beautiful work in me.

I now have complete peace about His plan. When I say complete peace...that is exactly what I mean. Nobody understands why I just don't push my hubby to go to the doctor...or why I just don't jump at the fertility options. I have grown in my faith so much since January...that I just don't see the need to go any further than the feet of my Savior! He did it ALL already. Why would I seek anyone other than Him. Babies are a gift from God. He is the one that gives each and every one of us everything!

About a month ago, Jake's friend, Josh, from Washington State came to stay with us for 12 days. Josh's dad came over to visit one Sunday afternoon. Jake and I were working in the yard and Halle stayed inside playing with Josh and his wife. They came outside and were getting ready to leave for church and Josh's dad (who is an extremist and has a prayer life like nobody we have EVER met) walked up to Jake and said, "Do you want a baby boy?" Jake said, "Huh?" He said, "Do you want a baby boy?" Jake said, "Well yeah?" He said, "Good because God just showed me, while I was watching Halle play in the living room that He is going to bless you with a baby boy." We were absolutely blown away. This man who doesn't know our situation at all. Who had no idea that my heart has literally ached for a baby for an entire year just told us what God had showed him. I was amazed!

Later the same day this was revealed to us, my sister-in-law told me they were going to have vasectomy reversal so they could have another baby. I know that God is an "on-time" God...but WOW! I believe that He wanted to make sure that I knew He has heard my heart and He is going to bless us at just the right time. It may have been extremely painful to hear that my brother and sister-in-law, who have 3 perfectly healthy children are going to try for 1 more after all I've been through this year.

God is sooooo GOOD!

So, I've been standing on this promise! Praying that God would just have His way. I've completely given this to Him....knowing that none of it is in my hands anyway.

This morning, Jake came in and said, "Listen to this!" It was a voice message from a complete stranger. It said, "You don't know me but a friend of yours gave me your name and number told me to be in prayer for you to conceive a child. I want you to know that I've prayed for you and asked God to show me what to pray for you about. He said to tell you that you will conceive VERY soon. I've not seen your friend since. But, I wanted to let you know that I have prayed and God has heard." We later found out that this man came as a guest speaker during a baby dedication and has prayed for many couples who have trouble conceiving...and many have been success stories of God's miracle hand at work!

Again, WOW! Really? All I can say is the God we serve is absolutely awesome! What was promised to us a month ago has now been confirmed by a complete and total stranger. As I sit here today I am completely overwhelmed with joy because I know what is coming. What God says He will do--- will absolutely happen!

What a joyous day it will be when I can tell all of my family and friends that I am expecting. I have faith that the day will happen SOON! Thank you, Jesus!!

Sunday, May 27, 2012

Bittersweet Birthday

Today is my beautiful daughter's 4th birthday! I can't believe it has already been 4 years. She has made me so happy! Each day she makes me laugh with her wonderful sense of humor! I honestly can't imagine my life without my Bug!

In all honesty, this morning was a little emotional. I had imagined celebrating her 4th birthday either big, huge and pregnant or with a newborn baby in tow. I now know that wasn't God's plan and I have accepted it. Eventhough I'm a little sad, I know His plan is far greater than I can imgaine...His word tells me so!! :)

I've been redecorating Halle's bedroom. When I decided on her nursery bedding 4 years ago. I decided that I wanted to go with something nontraditional. I didn't want the pastel pinks and purples. I went with a really cute set with red and black. Dragonflies and butterflies...

We transitioned from crib to toddler bed two years ago. The toddler bed didn't last long and we went right into the full size bed. I kept the same color scheme and we still decorated with some of her nursery things.

For months Halle has been begging me to redecorate her room. She really wanted her walls to be pink. "Like a princess.." So, for her birthday we got her new bedding and I just painted her walls a pretty pink. This meant that the last of her nursery was packed up and put away. I couldn't help being a little sad when I put her crib comforter and curtain valances in a trashbag and walked them to the basement. That was the last of the baby phase.

My baby girl is getting to be so big. My life would not be complete without my girl! My friend, Annie found out a couple of weeks ago that she is expecting a girl. She is scared to death. I keep telling her that it is the best thing ever and there is nothing to be scared of! Once she lays eyes on that sweet baby girl...she won't be able to imgaine life any other way. I know that I have a best friend for life. Of course there will be times that she won't be able to stand me and she will think I am the worst Mom in the universe. But, I know that will only last for a season! WE will forever be shopping buddies!! I taught her an important lesson this week. I was cleaning out my closet and she said, "Mom, you have too many shoes!" I said, "Did Daddy tell you to say that?" She said, "No, but why do you have so many shoes?" I responded the way every girl should, "A girl can NEVER have too many shoes! Remember that honey!"

Happy 4th Birthday, Halle! Momma loves you more than life itself!!


Wednesday, May 23, 2012

"I eat banana peels...What?"

"Let's Gooooo Miss Wilson, Wilson, Wilson...Wilson is Number Oooone!"
"I eat banana peels...What?"
"I'm a chinese pussy cat!"

Oh the joys of teaching young children! These are all things that I heard in the last few weeks of school. Kids are so fun! I really do enjoy my job! Even with all the added stress that comes with it, I can't imagine doing anything else. This year, we ended the year very stressed out. We were all glad to see May 17! At times, it seemed like summer would NEVER get here. I am so glad that we finally made it!

So, now I am back to being a "Stay at home Momma." I love being home with Halle everyday. But, it takes some adjusting. When you are used to a routine and going to work and having adult conversation everyday it is so different! My question for my sister-in-law yesterday was, "How do you keep from spending so much money?" All I want to do is little projects around the house. But, those little projects add up. I want to decorate my newly remodeled bathroom. I want to redo Halle's bedroom. I'd like to organize my pantry with baskets (expensive!) I want to repaint my living room. I also want to make some Pinterest projects. I always kid myself in thinking, "Oh I will save so much money in daycare over the summer." Yeah right! I have more time on my hands to think up of reasons to go to Wal-Mart, Big Lots, Hobby Lobby, etc. Who am I kidding? I am so thankful for my school district who always takes care of us over the summer (career ladder, opportunities for extra money). We truly are blessed at Central!!

I'm looking forward to a summer filled with making memories with my sweet little family. We are enjoying our camper every moment we get! We are in the process of making some very important decisions that will affect our family. I'm excited about all it! I can't wait to see what is in store for us!! :)