I'm thinking it is time for a new blog. My last blog was on July 28 and the title was "Infertility." So much has happened in the past two months. We decided in July that we were going to take the next step in finding out why we were having so much trouble getting pregnant. I had been to the doctor and he couldn't find anything wrong with me. So, our next step was having Jake checked out. He did NOT want to take this step. As a matter of fact, it took me 5 months to even convince him we needed to do this if we were ever going to get answers. Finally, he swallowed his pride and we made the necessary appointment in August. I took the day off and we spent the entire day at doctor offices. He was such a good sport. We laughed about how one day we could tell our child about what we had to go through to get him/her. About a week later, we got all of the results back and everything was normal. This took me by surprise. Jake, not so much! LOL! "See, I told you so!"
Hmmmm...so now what?! I felt like I was back at square one. While it was great news, it still didn't answer my question why we were not successful. I needed a medical reason.
So, I was talking to one of my best friends about it all. I told her I guess it was time to just go ahead and call the infertility doctor. I was starting to feel desperate. When she asked me what the doctors name was she said, "He is with my OB doctor." So, she gave me the number and I made my appointment for September 20. I finally felt like I was going to get the help that I needed. Before my appointment I found out that I made my appointment with the wrong doctor. This was the brother of the infertility specialist. I went ahead and kept the appointment because his website said that he had a team of infertility specialists that he worked with. He is an OB/GYN and I figured that may help with the cost since my insurance will NOT pay for fertility treatments.
I took my mom and Amber to the appointment with me. I knew that he would have lots of information and I needed them there to hear everything with me. Boy, was I right! I was overwhelmed with information. When I left the office, I was on cloud nine! He was so confident that he was going to help us! They offered VERY affordable treatments and they told me that they can code things to where most insurance companies will pay. The only thing out of pocket I had to pay was $440 for inseminations. With this doctor's brother it was going to be at least $2300. I was so thankful that God had opened up the door to find the "wrong" doctor. I really felt He had led me there to get the answers that I needed. I left the office with a plan. I felt great! I had so much hope again! They did a blood test while I was there to check to see if I had ovulated this month. The nurse called me back the next day and said that my numbers were really really good and it looked like I did ovulate this month. She said, "So, either call us back with a positive test or if you start!" I was happy to hear that I ovulated on my own...but I knew that I always did every month so I didn't get too excited or even remotely think it was possible that I would be calling them back with any other news than..."I started!" I was o.k. with that though...because I knew that I was going to start the process of finding out what was going on. I sent text messages to my close friends and said, "I've never been so excited to start!" ;)My friends joke all of the time about how they know my cycle better than their own. I love my friends and I LOVE that they have been with me on this journey! Such blessings to me!
Just five days later I was talking to Amber about how excited I was. I told Amber how I really had hoped so much for a positive test this month. I wanted God to get ALL of the glory for this miracle that I prayed so long for. I really had hang-ups on infertility medication and inseminations. I know all babies are blessings and miracles no matter how you get them. But, I really just wanted it all to happen naturally and miraculously. Later that day when I got home I decided to go ahead and test. I probably haven't tested in at least 4 or 5 months because I always knew what the result would be. I just did this time because I wanted to prove to myself that it was negative and so that I could quit giving myself false hope.
When I looked at the test it looked like the rest of them...one line! BLAH! Oh well, at least I know, right? I came back in to throw it away. I looked again and their was a faint second line. I screamed, "Halle give me my phone!" She said, "What's wrong Mom?" I called Courtney and said, "Um...I think I have a positive test." I took a picture and sent it to her. She called me back and said, "That is definitely positive." I couldn't believe it. I couldn't wait to tell Jake! He was supposed to be going hunting. When he walked in the door I asked him if he had to go hunting. He said, "No I guess not, why?" I held up the test and he said, "What does that mean?" Oh, brother!!
Since then, I've been to the doctor to confirm with blood test. They have given me a progesterone shot and I have orders for more bloodwork on Monday. They are treating me as an infertiltiy patient which is actually awesome! They are just being very extra cautious with everything. I have no doubt that this is exactly where I am supposed to be! God truly had his hand on this from day one--sixteen months ago.
I'm still in awe of Him! I have this overwhelming feeling of just how much He loves me! I feel so blessed! He made this happen and I will forever be thankful for the path he laid out before me!
I've said it before and I'll say it again, "Thank You for the mountain!"
